I had a day this week that I really had no where to be or any responsibilities and Brod had the car, so the girls and I had all day together. We had breakfast, went for a walk to get a pop and a little treat, read the library books they checked out yesterday, the girls gave me a "makeover" with all of their pretend makeup and jewelry, we played games, we colored, and then they both helped me make dinner. I don't know if it's because I know this chapter that the girls and I are in right now is almost to a close or if it's because for the past 3 1/2 years, it's just been us 3 together all day every day across the country from family, but as I wrote in my journal that night I became very emotional. I would probably be able to express my feelings better if I just write what was written that night: "I couldn't help but think that 10 years from now days like today are going to seem like they were from another life. That sounds so dramatic but I know things will be so busy that it will be hard to believe that I had a day where my only responsibility was to color. To snuggle and read books. To play games, go on a walk, and to watch the girl's little shows with them. Realizing this is actually the cause for the tears streaming down my face right now. I know the girls are only going to keep making me happier and happier the older they get but I am also well aware- heart-achingly aware- that this little precious, pure, innocent, untouched by the world stage they're in right now won't last forever. I am their world right now. They don't need any friends, video games, sports, BOYS, etc, etc... just Mommy, and each other. The little 3 musketeers every day all day long. Since it has taken me longer than planned to get pregnant and the fact that I'm still not pregnant makes me so grateful how close in age and in friendship Alexia and Audrey are. They are the lights of my life and their distinct little personalities bring smiles to my face all day long. I love how during this stage that I am their world, but they will always be mine."
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Jess, that was absolutely the sweetest entry.
I remember those days-and yes, they do go by so quickly and things do change! And I'm not even in the killer stage yet.
I am sitting here bawling. That's when you know it's special!
Love you-you are the sweetest mom. I am sorry that you are having hardness with getting pregnant. We'll keep you in our prayers.
it makes me sad to think that no matter what you can't slow down the clock....i love the stage we're in right now too and it just keeps speeding up. the same thing happened to my little brother and sisters....times just can't help but change. i just hope i will love the times to come as much as i love right now!
Your daughters are absolutely just adorable. What a sweet post that was! There is just something about daughters that is different from sons that I didn't realize till I had my little girl. Thank you for making me realize that everyday is precious and to treasure the small stuff!! I'm already to stop the clock and she is only 1!!
Oh Jess, i really needed what you said today. I work full time and when I do get home I try and do my best be break away from the working mom to being mom. Somedays are harder than others. you couldn't have said what I feel everyday better than what you said. Thanks for writing your feelings down, I think you answered a prayer of mine in just those words and description... It makes me want to go home and get in my jammies and hang out with my kids.
Scott and I tried for 2 years to get Tray, it will come.. gods just waiting for the right pick :)
what a sweet post. Your girls are so lucky to have you as a mom because you make everything special and magiacl for them. I loved what you shared out of your journal post, but I am positive that you will always be their world too. Love you!
love, Rebekah
That is the sweetest entry. You are such a fantastic mom, Jess! Thank you for reminding us all how precious each day is with this little ones! They are the sweetest little things! And you of course are just GORGEOUS! Love you!
Jess. Oh my gosh- talk about heartfelt! That was such a special post and I'm so glad that you shared it with us because you can just feel the amount of love you have your two little angels! The time you have had is priceless and I love that you take the time to make them feel like they are on top of the world! Because you really are their WORLD!(And you always will be!) You are an AMAZING mother Jess! EVERYONE will agree- that post was so tender and I love you and your family so much! That picture of Alexia and Audrey is SO DARLING! I love it!!!
And don't worry... miracle baby #3 will come! We will keep praying for you! LOVE YOU, Krys
You are so good to write in your journal so you never will forget how you feel right now. I am so sorry what a hard time you are going through, but because of it you are enjoying your girls and the stage they are in right now. Otherwise you might have let this precious time pass you by. They are your girls and no matter what they will be obsessed with you. How fun is that? You are such an amazing mom and baby #3 must be pretty special and worth the wait. Love you so much.
You are brave to say such honest things and good to the core to mean all the sweet things you say about your little ones.
There's nothing quite like the hubby coming home and asking what I did that day to find that "what I did that day" pales in comparison to what that day meant.
Loved your post. Love you.
Looking at your daughters makes me so excited to have two little girls. Thanks for sharing jess.
Wow! I wasn't planning on getting all teary this morning! You are an amazing writer and what you posted was beautiful. I am so glad you are enjoying those simple moments with your daughters cause I have found those simple things bring me the most joy. I am so glad you are enjoying the journey and not just looking toward when you guys are done with school, etc. I look back and those times were some of the very best. You are such a wonderful mother and example...your gorgeous girls are blessed beyond anything to have you!
Oh my gosh, Jess. How do you ALWAYS make me bawl? That entry was so precious and articulated to beautifully and perfectly. I've never thought about it that way that we are totally in their world right now. You are so amazing to realize that fact to the fullest. You are unreal. I can get real bored by groundhog day sometimes and your post just reminded me of just how precious this time is. I love you so much and know with everything that Heavenly Father will bless one of His most noble mothers with more spirits. Who is so blessed to come to your home? Just searching for the most righteous. I LOVE YOU
Your Girls are so Sweet and Beautiful! They look like you and Brody! Mini Mom and Mini Dad! I still can't believe that I have a 8 year old..it is Crazy but yet so Wonderful that as they get older they truly become even more of your friend! Enjoy them and realize that being a Mother is the most Precious gift and you are so blessed to have such Adorable little friends!
Honestly, you leave THE most thoughtful comments. You. Wow. You're getting a reputation. Mom mentioned that your comments are always her favorite to read. Love you.
That was sweet! I have days that I wish I were out of certain stages but then I realize that before long the boys will be 16 and mom just isn't the only girl in their life....sad. Thanks for the reminder to enjoy every moment with our kids before they are gone. I'm sorry about the pregnancy thing, just know that when the time is right it will happen. You are an amazing mom!
Thanks for reminding me that these days are passing by WAY too fast. Javien is starting kindergarten and I'm about to die thinking about it. This can't be happening! I need to remember this every single day that I will yearn for these days in 10 years when all we had to do was laugh and play and we were the stars in our children's eyes. You are awesome! I'll keep you in my prayers and hopefully a baby will make its way to your home very soon!!
I am so excited that I found your blog!!!! Your girls are darling!!! My blog address is hills-joyoflife.blogspot.com. Keep in touch.
I am such a dork!!! You probably have no idea who J's girl is!! This is Alisha. And can I just tell you that I still think that you are the greatest!!
It is so good to be in touch with you again!!! I've missed you!!! I'm so jealous!!! It looks like you guys live in an awesome place!!! I love the pics of your girls on the beach!!! They are so cute!!! My husbands name is Josh. I'm so glad we get to talk more now!!!
Jessica, I honestly am so jealous of how you are with words in this post. You said exactly the right things, and it's so true as to how we should all cherish our kids at this stage of life. Hard & challenging as it may be at times, we all need to take a deep breathe and slow down to enjoy the little things before they're gone. Thank you for sharing this, you have definitly made me proud & happy to be a mother. Thanks jess.
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